Will not it really have me while being unselfish to review oneself

Will not it really have me while being unselfish to review oneself? Whether wants to cross to people by oneself holding the eye given up, if will just want to grow it and enjoy the good fortune on day in the future for oneself by oneself, it is that there is a good fortune newspaper leaked in this world that that opposes and gives up what was got like this, hold and give up by oneself and hope to cross to all living creature, give that good fortune newspaper charity repaired to all all living creature, that just can be regarded as and repair the charitable and pious deeds, but so in theory, find after practical operation, hold and give up and receive better enjoyment for oneself in majority, so will ask and have feet to give up further, why have a lot of disputes if it have feet to give up that certainly hold? Because most to make by oneself, but impossible to is it all make to say, can do several several, is it is it give up either to come to hold, Buddha dharma vast and boundless, though read and hide for nearly nine years by oneself, no to bet that everything one's own is understood, bet oneself worried custom have, worried custom have, only a bit lighter than common people, the reason will be said and will be explained, but practical operation will stand up not then the same thing, though the external environment will have influence more or less, the most important one is still one's own one's own question, really need a good good teacher of knowledge to teach oneself, just as the spiritual prop of Buddhism of Buddha times is Buddha, Buddha live generation now then, only according to teaching method of Buddha, hold and give up and pray to Buddha to become a Buddhist, hold five exhortations and repair ten well, it is the best that certainly become a monk, but not that you think that the monk would like to accept family financial situation field, one's own trouble custom was not changed the hair heart, in voluntary labour, went, it is impossible for the elder to dare to shave crossing with you, become a monk because if you are not the wholehearted wanting for all living creature, then become a monk and only hurt oneself, because eat the ten directions letter to support allly, without walking and opposing trully, certainly will come and may wrap the hair and wear the angle to return, one's own ability is that Bodhisattva gives up at home now, give up waiting until possibly that oneself can be held as for becoming a monk, talk when being sure, but though the heart regards becoming a monk and giving up as the goal at home, can hold and go to school to hold, it is learnt, see how others hold studying slowly that can't hold.